One step at a time, and it does take time.
This line is from a lecture I listened to recently on awakening and transformation — and has continued to stick with me. In the process of living more ‘consciously’ and of making decisions aligned with your intuition, one must accept that it cannot happen all at once. Growth takes time. Healing, practicing, repairing, starting new cycles or closing old ones, waiting for new habits to make a difference. They all require time. It cannot, will not, happen all right now.
Something I’ve learned in the last three or so years — and that I keep having to learn more deeply — is that things take time to know. My life is better and clearer and easier when I give myself lots of time and grace to figure it out. Clarity arrives after feeling the spectrum of what it ‘might’ be like, but before it comes, I don’t know yet. I do know if something is right for me if it holds up over time, if it continues to feel good, if it makes me smile when I’m in a neutral mood. The high highs and low lows are not to be attached to, because they always change. They are just here to color my life, to slow me down, to give me something interesting to experience and to talk about.
If we acted on every feeling and impulse, the world would be even more chaotic than it already is. Often, intense highs and lows lead to rash and dramatic decisions, saying things you don’t mean, or hurting others in some way. It takes time to know what you (really) want and how you (really) feel.
The world does not love patience, but spirit requires it.
No amount of rumination or processing can bring clarity before it comes — so let it come on its own. It is a waiting game, but not a passive one. Waiting for clarity or to know what to ‘do’ does not mean you are passively sitting by and expecting the things you want to be served to you on an easy breezy silver platter. You will always be an active participant, a co-creator of your life, with agency. You can be aware of your mind and present with your body as you feel into what is ‘right’ — and then once you know, you can do.
No amount of thinking or planning can catapult you to the ‘destination’. And is there even a destination? Isn’t it all about how you get there, wherever ‘there’ is?
Living in alignment takes work and commitment. It takes practice. It takes patience and radical forgiveness for everything you have done and been and said. There is not a world in which you could have done it differently then, because you are here now, and this is how now is.
So we move forward with love and patience, one step at a time.
And, it does take time.
xx, maggie
P.s. Lecture referenced is one of Ra Uru Hu’s, called ‘the 16 orientations of awakening’.