Your last paragraph says it all Maggie. I suffered depression throughout my late childhood, and teenage years. Surviving cancer as an adult lead me to set myself on a path of gratitude and joy despite awful things that came at the same time.
This is seriously lovely and, as I'm sure you know, cut directly to me core (in the best way). It's such a difficult experience to try to write about anorexia because of how contradictory the experience can be--- we hate it, but we're terrified in its absence. We'd probably give most everything up to not have it, but we also, as you mentioned, resign to it being somewhat of a permanent presence. I also love how you tied in Jonathan Haidt's newest book. While many of us read what data and say "yeah no shit", it doesn't exactly resonate with how my own anorexia developed or how it's even sustained. I'm happy that we've both found solace not in the disorder, in but what it has brought!!!!!
Your last paragraph says it all Maggie. I suffered depression throughout my late childhood, and teenage years. Surviving cancer as an adult lead me to set myself on a path of gratitude and joy despite awful things that came at the same time.
This is seriously lovely and, as I'm sure you know, cut directly to me core (in the best way). It's such a difficult experience to try to write about anorexia because of how contradictory the experience can be--- we hate it, but we're terrified in its absence. We'd probably give most everything up to not have it, but we also, as you mentioned, resign to it being somewhat of a permanent presence. I also love how you tied in Jonathan Haidt's newest book. While many of us read what data and say "yeah no shit", it doesn't exactly resonate with how my own anorexia developed or how it's even sustained. I'm happy that we've both found solace not in the disorder, in but what it has brought!!!!!
Grateful for YOU, my dear💗